Wednesday, January 15, 2025

the year ahead

Back in the golden age of equestrian blogging, posting goals was popular and ubiquitous, with many the ambitious rider routinely committing to quarterly and even monthly goals. 

That trend faded over time (along with the waning popularity of long-format platforms in general...), and my last year of posting traditional annual and quarterly goals was 2018 (final wrap up post here). 

Obvi I didn't abandon the long-format platform (otherwise, uh, I wouldn't be writing these words right now LOL), nor have I given up on “planning” lol. So it was something else that made me move away from such structured well-defined goals, at least in the traditional sense. 

excited for the next year with this sweet biscuit
Namely, upper level rider Matt Brown wrote a series of compelling and thought provoking essays for Chronicle of the Horse in late 2018 that I found to be deeply influential. 

I wrote out my thoughts and impressions based on his essay in this post here, but have continued to mull over the ideas ever since. Including reading (and re-reading) a book called The Confidence Gap by Russ Harris & Stephen Hayes PhD (available for free through your Audible account or with a trial), which I believe to be some of the primary source material Matt references in his essay.

A big theme in this material is the distinction between process and outcome. Or, to take it a step further, values and outcomes. That an 'outcome' is a bit like the destination of a journey, like going to Paris. Or, more topically, riding in the Championships or earning your Bronze Medal. And the process is the way we get there, step by step.

These outcomes may very well be things we want -- but the fulfillment from such a destination or outcome is by its very definition a transient and temporary sensation. And, more to Matt's point -- we ultimately have very little control over ever achieving certain outcomes. As every horse person knows, there are virtually no promises with horses.  

So the idea is to focus on staying guided by our values, deriving fulfillment not only from where we plan to go, but from the steps along the journey itself. To get passionate about the process, rather than obsessing about the outcome

not sure exactly what’s ahead of us yet but it’ll hopefully be fun!!
And as Adam Grant notes in his book Think Again, (also seems to be available for free with an Audible trial, for those of you who like listening to books while driving!), "passions are developed, not discovered."

Most of us are already pretty far along in the whole “passionate about horses” thing… But ya know, the process of actually improving our riding, developing our skills, conditioning ourselves to the correct postures and exertions etc… Not even mentioning the other half of that equation — the horse itself and all that goes into devoting ourselves to pursuits with an entire other sentient creature… Well. Turns out, riding is hard

Sometimes it’s a real grind, or deeply frustrating. Failure with horses is almost inevitable in one way or another, it seems. There are so many ways things can go wrong — bad rides, lamenesses or injuries, lack of skill or training or ability. External forces like shitty weather or bad ground or plain old limited resources….

Some days it’s easy to say, “ya know what, I just don’t feel like it.” Which… Honestly, imo is totally fine. I’ve had to learn to give myself some grace (and space) for those days. 

But I’m also working to shift my mindset a little bit too. Namely, working to understand that motivation isn’t some magical drug that allows us to succeed in our endeavors. It’s not something that you either “have” or “don’t have” — it’s just a reflection of we want. The desire to act

words to live by
In this mindset, ‘discipline’ and ‘will power’ become nothing more than figments of the imagination, mere constructs rather than something that defines or describes me as an individual. What we are really describing with those words is a pattern of committed action. 

Doing the thing even when I don’t feel like it. Going through the motions, the process, bc that’s how we get where we wanna go. Or, if necessary, reevaluating the intended outcome entirely if the process of getting there doesn’t inspire joy or fulfillment. One thing I learned from my competition journey with Charlie — it’s hard to engage fully in an activity if I’m distracted by fear or anxiety. 

So. For the year ahead, I’m re-committing myself to the values of persistence and self development. To the process of practicing my skills, assessing the results, and modifying as needed — recognizing that sometimes failure is a wonderful teacher. 

I want to put one foot in front of the other, day after day, hopefully to get somewhere pretty special, but definitely enjoying the journey. Happy new year, y’all!

Monday, January 13, 2025

best eventing club ever

Our local eventing club, the MCTA, is just such a special group. Maryland is part of the USEA’s Area II, a densely packed and competitive group of riders, comprising everybody from Olympic level professionals, to young riders and ambitious and talented adult amateurs. It’s a big pond with a LOT of big fish.

Ruddy cheeked red heads lol
But the MCTA is something smaller and more intimate amid all that. It’s (obviously) a more geographically local membership… But it’s also more of an accessible community that more or less just celebrates the sport of eventing - at all levels.

Sorry i don’t have a pic on the horse…. Yet!!
I always strongly encourage literally anybody I meet who does at least one event (including unrecognized!) at any level in a year to become a member. Bc the year end awards at this club are LIT lol.

Case in point: While Doozy and I completed 4 unrecognized horse trials this year, I only submitted our results from the last two - Loch Moy and Waredaca. Mostly bc perhaps I don’t really understand how the club actually calculates and tallies points toward all the various award categories. 

And holy crap guys, my sweet mare won four GIANT ribbons — including a TIP neck ribbon omg! And a sweet Big Brown ribbon too <3 <3

I swear this club will find literally any reason to award you a GIANT ribbon
Honestly it’s been my sense for years that the club finds ways to recognize literally everybody who submits results for the year end awards. They have seemingly endless categories, including separate categories for horses and riders, and do their best to count points favorably such that you get the best possible awards.

Look at these awesome prizes!! The little gift bags are FULL of treats
Naturally — there are prizes too!! Really really sweet, creative and thoughtful prizes omg! And guys — we only got 3rd 7th and 8th place ribbons. I wasn’t able to attend the banquet so I don’t know for certain what all was awarded for higher place finishes, but saw among my friends’ swag bags custom photo printed blankets, monogrammed saddle pads…. And let’s not forget all the engraved perpetual trophies.

Also, there was a silent auction where yours truly mayyyyyy have snagged some exciting goodies!
Really, so much amazingness from what is honestly a modest and relatively small club. MCTA offers one recognized event each spring at the iconic Shawan Downs, and two starter events - one also at Shawan (generally a week or two after the recognized) and a fall event often held at Tranquillity.

The unrecognized events in particular are insanely inviting and both allow for complete schooling of all the courses in advance (well, y’all already know Tranquillity just straight up allows complete schooling year round). And natch, points earned from MCTA events count double toward year end awards!

‘Tis the season for aspirational dreaming tho, amirite? LOL
The club also organizes an absolutely stellar silent auction in conjunction with the banquet each year too. Allllll sorts of items get donated, including lessons, schooling passes, wellness packages (like chiro, acupuncture, massage…), gift cards, swag bags and on and on

This year, tho I concentrated my bidding attention on event entries — with a whooooole bunch of interesting activities tempting us into bidding wars. There was everything from schooling shows, derbies, 3-phase starter trials, and even recognized USEA horse trials.

I may or may not have snagged one of the latter, omg. So, uh, stay tuned for more on that lol.

It’s all ahead of us <3 
In the meantime, we’re still fairly snowed in around here. It’s less bitterly cold and everybody is used to the snow now — roads and paths are clear etc. But it’s still a a bit limiting and actually I think Doozy’s feet got a little bruised from ice packs, womp. 

So ya know. It’s a quiet season, a time for reflection and hopes and dreams for the future. And ya know. Maybe a time to renew my memberships to the MCTA and all the other associations etc for the year ahead! Are you joining any associations or clubs for the coming year too??




Thursday, January 9, 2025

4 minutes

I was going to start this post by saying, "A few years ago....," except.... ahem, actually, it'd be a bit more accurate to say, About a decade ago, I audited a clinic with David O'Connor in which he recited a series of clearly often-repeated** lectures chock full of useful nuggets.

They were the sort of lectures you could listen to again and again and always hear something new, depending on your current horse journey and experiences. And obviously the material stuck with me considering I'm still talking about it lol. But y'all know me, I tend to veer toward the systematic and methodological.... so when DOC solemnly declared, 
"Know the parameters so you can reproduce them,
Well... Yea, that's exactly the type of guidance that inspires my ongoing horsey pursuits.

(**Confirmed when I audited him again some time later, and it was virtually the same material. Legit super valuable all the same, and would listen to it all over again!)

New York bred mare is right at home in the snow <3
Which.... is also maybe an insight into why Doozy has been so uniquely challenging for me to get going. She's a sensitive chaotic creature who can have disproportionately large responses to relatively minor (and even imperceptible to me) stimuli.

But winter is the season for paring back, scaling down, simplifying and reexamining all those systems and methodologies I guess. And as such, we've had a number of pleasantly gratifying little micro-breakthroughs in recent weeks. 

view from the upper indoor is so pretty <3
Obvi re-introducing the metronome was a big one, especially paired with using my interval timer app. And actually, filming our entire ride with the wall-mounted helmet cam the other week led to another new discovery that we're just now sorta testing out. 

Specifically: in terms of 'reproducible parameters,' how long does it take right now for Doozy to warm up, settle in, get soft? 

I wrote in that post about trimming the first 4 minutes of trot out of the video, mostly bc it was just us sorta warming up etc.... It was a random observation in that moment, but one I've tried to keep track of since then. 

was a good biscuit for some fun low key ground work
Bc basically it's really easy for me to get on the horse and immediately start fiddling, asking the horse to do this, do that, what have you. And then maybe if what I'm doing "isn't working," maybe I change tactics or try something else or whatever. Ya know, the whole "chasing my wet noodle of a mare around with all my aids while she bounces off contorting every which way."

But if, instead, I just ride the rhythm, keeping all my aids steady (within reason, it's still **me** after all!), and the horse squarely between said aids...? 

Turns out, right now 4 minutes of trot is actually our magic number. (Recall my interval timer dings every 2min so it's easy to keep track). Idk if that's a "good" or "bad" duration. But.... maybe I don't care if it's relatively reliable and reproducible? 

And actually having that little bit of data in my mind has done wonders for emphasizing and encouraging relaxation. If I'm starting our rides with a commitment to patience and steadiness -- goooooo figure, Doozy is likelier to match my energy there.

"ma'am, but why i am nekkid???" -- red mares everywhere
And the last little recent breakthrough relates to the new bit. I have almost no experience doing intentional flatwork with a straight mouth piece. But maybe I had some incorrect assumptions about what it would be like, esp re: bend. 

Asking Doozy to flex in or out with this bit is an entirely different (and actually quite nice) sensation from the jointed bits we'd been using. That could be purely a function of how she reacts (or, doesn't react) to the bit so YMMV... But it's interesting to me. Also interesting is how easy it is for me to feel when my outside hand isn't allowing the level bend I'm asking for. Which, it seems is often.** Um. Whoops? 

And I'm not talking about the whole "inside leg to outside rein" purity test here (altho, natch, DOC had plenty to say there too in contradiction to my current approach lol), bc right now our Holiest of Grails is asking Doozy to maintain gentle inside bend, with nose jusssst reaching level with the point of her inside shoulder vs staying centered on her midline. 

(**If you watch carefully ((even just literally the first 0:20sec)) you can see exactly what I'm talking about from that last filmed ride, which was done in the snaffle before we switched to the nathe. It's most apparent when we track right.).

sweet raggamuffin
Bc when these parameters are in place --- steady rhythm, steady inside bend, patience to wait it out --- we are ****finally**** starting to get 'reproducible' results in our flat work. Mostly-ish. Lol. Y'all know how it is haha. 

And obvi, as L. Williams was fond of pointing out... Sometimes today's solutions become tomorrow's problems.... But, eh, that is by definition a problem for Future Emma. 

For right now, it's exciting and empowering to start having flat rides that are less 'at the mercy' of external conditions, and more a direct result of consistent inputs. Oooh, and as further proof of this, our most recent session was held again in the spookier lower indoor, tho with company finally. And sure, it still produced larger reactions in the mare than I'd expect elsewhere... but not enough to disrupt us from the work. Small steps, y'all!





Monday, January 6, 2025

practice assess modify

Hope all of y'all in polar vortex zones are staying warm! It's prettttty cold around these parts with more expected snow as of this writing... Bleh. 

We have fun activities tentatively planned throughout the month, so actually this weekend was our best bet for the next Trainer C Dressage lesson too -- back-to-back weekends, woot woot! 

take your best guess: did she or did she not poop on her friend's blankets lol
So for Saturday's solo ride at home, I wanted to focus on simple basics. Enough to get us moving around and practicing our skills etc, but nothing crazy given the conditions. 

Tho we're still kinda figuring out the best way to get our work done during high traffic times of day... On this particular day, the lower indoor was open while the upper indoor was occupied. Benefits of an unoccupied ring include being able to set up whatever exercises I want! 

inspiration pic for the ride --- distances not super important, using the whole length of the ring, focusing on balanced canter
Which, was exactly what I had in mind, yay! This ground pole exercise seemed like just the ticket for practicing our balance in canter with landmarks to keep us honest. Also seemed like a useful way to practice bending lines / related distances while encouraging patience. 

Tho... Downsides to selecting the unoccupied lower ring include that this ring just seems spookier to Doozy. It sits kinda in a low spot on the farm, and has weird acoustics where you can hear all sorts of activity around all 4 sides of the ring. Plus there's more traffic passing by the doorways, and for some reason this seems more alarming / distracting for Doozy since we're kinda looking 'up' out of the ring. 

technically walked in about 3ish strides, but with indoor canter etc rode fine as a quiet 4 too
Add in the crazy wind that kept banging against all the doors and.... Yea. Not an easy set of circumstances for poor sensitive Doozy. Sigh. 

But eh, we persevered. At least this exercise was kinda perfect in that it was enough to give her something to think about and focus on, and enough to keep me riding my consistent steady rhythm, but not so overwhelming or intense that we ever got frantic or disheveled.

trot circles!
Tho. Eh. I still kinda need somebody yelling at me in real time to make me ride just that titch more proactively. Recording my rides helps to a certain degree -- when I know I'm being recorded (even if it's just an iphone on the wall LOL) I will usually try to pull myself together a bit. 

canter circles!
But y'all know how it goes. As it was, Doozy actually kinda nailed the exercise in canter. Like, didn't rush at all -- good girl! Like she doesn't even really look tense or upset or spooky in that gif. Just looks like a horse cantering around somewhat indifferently. Progress, yo! 

iphone field of view missed the first pole, womp
Idk, tho. I keep trying to make this ring happen for us lol, but maybe it's just not gonna happen lol... Or at least, maybe not when we're alone. Doozy enjoys riding in company, and honestly seems totally at ease riding among lesson groups. Everything in moderation, I guess!

you get the idea tho
Anyway. Saturday's ride was all it needed to be ahead of Sunday's lesson. Trainer C has been amazingly accommodating in scheduling us considering she already has a steady roster of weekly lessons... Sometimes that means she's squishing us in pretty early tho lol, esp in frigid conditions omg and given trailering time etc... But c'est la vie, right?

good girl tried hard even tho she maybe just doesn't like this ring
The lesson was really interesting too. It's so rare that Trainer C gets to see us back-to-back weekends (and by "rare" I mean... maybe has never happened before?) that it felt like a chance to push the momentum. Meaning bringing our new quiet-riding bit, the nathe, and actually opting to run the metronome in my pocket too -- just on a lower volume. 

rolling into the fancy dressage barn lookin like hobos in 19*F
I've never used the app in a lesson before but maybe that's a mistake. Like, why waste this training opportunity working on details I can practice with the metronome, right? Trainer C can only say so many words in one moment, let's get the best out of it!

And in any case, she actually remarked on the quality of our tempo before I sorta sheepishly pulled out the (quiet) metronome and she was like, "wow actually that's a great idea!"

literally wearing all our clothes haha. but hey, this is the only pic we get so....
She also declared the nathe a winning solution for us at this moment in our training. It was her perception that Doozy was more relaxed, less tense or frantic, and less anticipatory of whatever is coming next. She also felt like I was able to be less dramatic about slowing the mare down. 

This was fascinating to me bc **my** perceptions of the mare were actually quite the opposite. It was my sense that Doozy was actually a bit more tense than normal -- perhaps a hangover from our ride the previous day in the spooky indoor? And I felt like I had to do at least as much, if not possibly a little more work at times to keep our rhythm. 

#stalkercats
It's obviously entirely possible that my perceptions are a bit skewed, tho, right? Like we ALL know it rarely looks the way it feels. But my honest impression is that... The nathe bit makes such a huge difference in reducing noise in the signal for Doozy. 

It still feels like I'm riding the same horse, but the impression from the ground (perhaps from the judge's perspective?) is a little nicer? Like it feels the same to me, but she's not reacting so dramatically to my riding and therefore presents a more pleasant picture?? Idk. We'll see haha. 

Regardless, it was interesting. Doozy was super for the whole lesson, really tried hard and had some of her best and most consistent moments of inside bend -- our holy grail for the foreseeable future. 

It's exciting to keep nibbling away at the edges, esp given the season lol. Anybody else feeling a bit of momentum going into the new year? Or are you taking it easy until conditions improve?



Thursday, January 2, 2025

quiet on the set, please!

Happy New Year, y'all! Hope it's been a good one so far. The last few years have been so unpredictable, so much has changed... It's hard to even really know what to expect or even what I want to happen in 2025. 

sweet mare walkin up to the ring
I've got a few ideas bumping around in my head tho -- not really necessarily specifically "goals" or "intentions" for the year, or whatever... but maybe not that far off either. So maybe more to come on that later. For today, tho, more shopping!

finally pulled the trigger on testing out a Sprenger nathe
You might recall we marked Doozy's one year anniversary with an updated post on her day to day management,** including her current tack / equipment setup. In particular, I wasn't super satisfied with our bitting situation, and y'all encouraged me to try other styles of mouth and/or cheek piece bits. So I finally did it -- and acquired this lovely and simple Sprenger nathe!

(**Assuming I ever do get around to writing a post about setting goals / intentions / whatever for the coming year, one key evolution in my brain right now revolves around being better about self assessments versus self judgements. In that linked post, I wrote "I've never had good hands," which is squarely a judgement on myself, right? Perhaps a better way to think about it is, "Doozy has difficulty settling into contact when my hands are busy." This is more of an assessment of a situation or action, and therefore more actionable... or something LOL)

not to confuse you -- these two pics are from an earlier ride, from the last dressage saddle test ride
I've actually had the bit for a little while already, but with all the saddle trials and lessons and whatnot, it never seemed like quite the right time to make a big change like that. 

I suspected that Doozy would like it, but... Well, to be perfectly honest, I also suspected it was entirely possible that I'd have zero brakes dear lord jesus take the wheel. Ahem. So I didn't wanna introduce the change at a time when she was maybe already a little tense or frazzled like she'd been during the saddle test rides. 

the footage was not great bc a) it was not a great ride, and also b) that giant over-exposed sunspot front and center made it hard to see any details farther away
After our lovely relaxed ride earlier in the week, tho, the time seemed right. And it was! 

Well. Ok, actually it was kinda a difficult set of circumstances. The wind was absolutely howling all day. Not particularly cold, but constant and noisy. The indoor ring was occupied by a large group when we arrived, at which time they all exited almost immediately. Doozy is used to horses coming and going since we often time our rides to coincide with the changes of lesson groups... But it was still a lot.

she's still a cutie tho!
I had the trusty metronome going, tho, and just tried to stay laser focused on being stable and strong and quiet in my position. And if it felt like the wheels were coming off and I needed to abandon my position to do crazy things with my hands... Just shorten the reins and reset my position and focus on that steady tick-tock-tick-tock

the tack evolution continues
I'm not going to say that the contact was like... perfectly fixed or whatever... But Doozy had way more moments of finding it and staying on it, vs bouncing and chattering around at the end of the reins. Especially at canter, she seemed really at home.

It's a very quiet riding bit -- there really is not a lot of movement in the mouth piece, even tho it's still got the loose ring cheeks. It didn't feel like Doozy was running through it at all either, too. 

powdered up like a bebe's butt before getting blanketed to the gills for the impending polar vortex
I've never really had a horse who seemed to care one way or another about the finer points of bitting. Isabel was always lovely in her Sprenger KK, and with Charlie it was always about whether I'd be able to stop him or get him up off from leaning on the bit. 

Doozy is... obviously an entirely different animal haha, that's for sure. But I'm happy when she's happy, and guys.... she might just be happy with this nathe, omg! Obvi more testing is needed, and we'll wear it in our next lesson to get Trainer C's thoughts... but I'm optimistic!  

In any case, we'll see what happens. It's about to get pretty chilly around these parts so who knows how much riding will actually get done. And ya know. Limbo week is over, it's time to get back to real life and regular working hours LOL. C'est la vie, amirite.

Tuesday, December 31, 2024

pocket coach (with media!)

I virtually always low-key wish my rides were being recorded. I'm just that obsessed with studying riding media, ya know? Since moving barns, tho, most of my serious schooling is done alone, where the best bet for video is a camera set up on the wall. Which works... but means far away, unfocused shots that may or may not be framed super nicely. 

With all the recent trial saddles, tho, I got more desperate determined and hauled out ye olde helmet cam, and was actually pleasantly surprised with how decently it worked! It's very sensitive to sun spots in the indoor rings (as you can see from the over exposed blobs in all these screen shots), but otherwise is #BetterThanNothing!

media is media, guys LOL -- we'll take our blurry screenshots and we'll LIKE IT
So I brought it out for our ride yesterday --- and am so glad I did! I wanted to keep working on the postural details Trainer C focused on during our lesson the day prior, AND I wanted to play with jompies yay! 

look who can trot ground poles with only minimal disruptions to rhythm!!
I also fired up the ol' metronome app again! It's been a hot minute since we used it, for whatever reason, but guys --- it is such a valuable tool for us right now. 

One of my biggest weaknesses on the flat is that I get pretty easily baited into fiddle-fucking around with the horse's face. And Doozy is such a slippery noodle that it almost feels like I'm kinda chasing her around with my aids as she bounces and contorts every which way. 

turns out, she goes better when i stop fucking around so much LOL
But with the metronome, idk... It's like, there's just this steady drum beat (literally) that I'm either matching, or not matching. It's just one single thing to think about -- but in focusing on that tempo, everything else seems to click into place. To hold a steady tempo with my posting requires that I be very solid, stable, and deliberate in my position and balance. 

And the result is that.... Basically all my aids stay in one place, giving Doozy the stability she needs to settle onto them. 

very progressive set of exercises:
3 ground poles, spaced 9'
pole-X-pole, spaced 9'
3 big X's (far side), spaced 21'
The key for me is being more patient. Waiting it out. Giving Doozy time (and the actual peace and quiet from my noisy way of riding) to kinda ease into it. Rather than feeling like, "I need to make a difference," or "She needs to listen now." For Doozy, those feelings are direct nonstop tickets to Tension Land, and she's more than happy to go there at the least provocation. 

plus single jumps on the diagonals. everything can be jumped from both directions
So. Anyway. It's all in the video, if you want to see what I mean. 

ALSO in the video --- the jompies, yay! Our first jump school since the clinic with Sharon White last week! I swear I have all these good intentions of doing jumping style exercises twice a week... But it always ends up feeling like I'm lucky if it's once every 1.5wks. C'est la vie, I guess. 

look how good she's getting at grids!
There were already two nice singles set up on the diagonals, and I added a series of progressive gymnastic exercises. And Doozy was so good!

off both leads! actual video is higher resolution, i promise
I'm not sure Sharon would have totally agreed with ALL my choices lol... But I did trot into the singles just to keep reinforcing her lessons. 

i let her canter the singles to finish up too <3
Doozy was great, tho, jumped everything super well -- and only knocked one rail! The grid obvi rode a little short for her (bc duh it was set short at 21') but that's honestly the point. To help her get a little more patient and compressed. The one single going into the far corner kept riding a little funny for us, but eh I think it was a little 'bottom heavy' (with the lattice gate practically on the floor) and going into the corner tends to inspire the chip vs the gap anyway, so I didn't dwell. 

we are learning a lot from each other, i think
On one hand, these sessions can seem kinda basic or elementary... But on the other hand.... that's also entirely the point lol. It was only just this summer where even just cantering a ground pole was Very Exciting OMG lol. And now the mare is powering cleanly thru grids on short distances. We'll take it!


The video is less edited than normal -- and is almost our entire ride. I cut the first 4ish minutes of trot, where we were just warming up and settling in, and the walk breaks. So it's basically the full meat of our session. But for those of you who maybe don't want to watch 10min of wide-angle footage taken from a fixed position on the wall.... here are the key moments:

- First ~3min are our proper trot work, including passing through the ground poles
- Around 3:30 we start canter work, including passing through ground poles
- At 6:00 we start jumping, which lasts the remainder of the video

cookies and face scritches for a job well done <3
And idk about you guys, but for me? Rides like this are the stuff. It is so satisfying to just have a simple, pleasant school. Especially compared to some of our recent rides in the trial saddles -- where it felt like Doozy's tension only increased as the ride went on and nothing I did seemed to make a difference. 

I'm thinking the metronome is going to make more regular appearances in our rides again. Who cares if the lesson kids we ride with think it's weird LOL bc it clearly is working for us right now! 

Maybe that'll be my New Year resolution haha... Anyway. Happy almost 2025, y'all!



Monday, December 30, 2024

dressage resolutions

I don't always do dedicated dressage lesson recap posts anymore for... Well. A couple reasons. Mostly bc there's never any media. And let's be real, riding media is the fuel powering this blog, right? Bc the other main reason is that... There's really not anything "new" to write. It's still just the same old nitty gritty work of being an adult amateur chipping away at low level dressage LOL...

But. Eh. Idk about y'all, but sometimes I find value in just writing out my memories and takeaways from a lesson to help reinforce and remember the salient bits. 

good mare doesn't miss a meal!! everyone else lookin at me, but not Dooz, she's busy!
So let's get into our most recent lesson, yes? I had originally told Trainer C I'd be riding in the trial dressage saddle for the lesson, but... as mentioned yesterday, the trial was a total flop and I abandoned that mission entirely. 

My sense is that I'm still just wayyyy too 'noisy' as a rider. Especially when you put me in a deep seated dressage saddle that facilitates wrapping my entire leg around the mare... and. Yea. That's a LOT of noise for poor sensitive Doozy, who quite possibly feels like I sit on her like a friggin earthquake. Ahem. 

isn't it so pretty tho?? just ignore the janky spare stirrups and filthy saddle pad LOL
But Lo! Trainer C was game to seize on this sensation and run with it, and focused her instruction on demanding a bit more from me in terms of stability. 

Specific postural highlights for me include: 

- Posting evenly and deliberately from both legs (draped loosely down, not clinging or curled). 
- Maintaining a steady rhythm from my core, with longer frontline from belly button to sternum. Almost feeling like I'm pushing my torso backward.
- Arms hanging down and stable, but NOT rigid. Longtime readers know my floaty arms and inconsistent hands have long been weak spots. And ya know. It's still true today! #progress LOL

can you tell i cleaned this mirror off specifically to be able to grab such a useful and illuminating photo??
The rhythm piece is really key, tho. I need to OWN the rhythm and speed. Doozy is like every other green thoroughbred in that she's weak behind, loses balance and speeds up, and gets strung out on the forehand. It's simply not possible for her to bend the way I'm asking if she's out of balance like that. 

I need to ride the mare squarely centered between all my aids. My posture should be like rebar - strong and supportive but NOT completely rigid. Hands, elbows, shoulders, torso, seat --- all of it has to be connected and saying the same thing. 

stalker cat <3
Unsurprisingly, every time it felt like Doozy was sorta unspooling or losing balance, if I could remember to pull all my pieces back together and SLOW DOWN, and hold my own self up... She could find her footing again. Gooooo figure LOL....

Anyway. We worked through fairly basic figures throughout the ride. Doozy is a horse who focuses best when doing specific things --- vs sorta endlessly trotting the same circle. So. Riding figures is our friend. 

the other stalker cat <3 <3
(yes there are two of them lol)
Trainer C had us doing progressive figures off the quarter line -- repeating each time with slight variations in the pattern. First time down, just go straight and hold the rhythm. Second time, add in 15m circle from the quarter line, then leg yield back to the wall after finishing the circle. Third time, just the leg yield. 

Rhythm and inside bend were our targets in this exercise -- particularly to the right (Doozy's trickier direction). Trainer C wanted me to be VERY clear about establishing the inside bend on the circle. Not by like, strong arming the mare into it. But through having the correct posture and by going slow enough that the mare could do it. Then hold that same exact positioning and rhythm into the leg yield. Rinse repeat. 

post-lesson mare -- she worked hard!
We also integrated posting on the off diagonal while tracking right as a way to help Doozy get her inside shoulder more lifted - tho Doozy found this very disconcerting. Sensitive critter. Reminded me a bit of the work we did with Dom tho on frequently changing my post as a way to reaffirm that we've got the right balance and softness. 

At canter, we focused on using half circles to maintain bend and speed. As in, do half a 20m across the short end, then hold straight until / unless the mare gets strong or loses bend, then 20m half circle again. 

yer a good egg, dooz
To her credit, Doozy worked very hard this lesson, and at no point got frazzled or overblown. She wants to be good, wants to understand. Yet another reminder that if I ever feel like she's kinda melting down or not trying hard enough or whatever, it's probably bc.... something is buggin her or she's uncomfortable in some way. Bc she is honestly a very game mare. 

So ya know. The onus is on me to just keep trying to ride her better and with greater stability / less noise. As Sharon says, "NO DRAMA, just clarity." Bc I truly believe that once she really understands the flatwork game, it'll get much easier to build strength in the right ways. 

Who knows lol... Maybe 2025 will be the year where I finally make more progress in my flatwork haha, we'll see!